Some people are surprised when their parents divorce. I can't say I'm one of them. Their separation and eventual divorce did not surprise me. I kept hoping it wouldn't happen, but deep down I knew it was over. There was no longer any desire to make it work and it was very evident in my parents' actions towards one another.
I keep trying to go back in time and pinpoint when I first knew my parents were having problems. It's hard to do. These problems didn't develop over night. And even though that should make me feel good, it doesn't. Instead, it makes me question my childhood and everything I've ever known. Was it all a lie? My parents had been married for so long, that I thought that meant they would stay together forever.
Did anyone else feel like their childhood had been a lie when they found out their parents were getting divorced? If so, how did you reconcile the old life you once lived and the new live you have now? Would love to hear some thoughts. And even if your parents aren't divorced but your life drastically changed as of late, I'd love to hear your thoughts too.
If you're like me, you're looking for support during this time. There are two blogs that you should check out (in addition to mine of course):
COD The Real War and Walking on Eggshellz. They both have great resources and great discussion. For me, it's helpful to know I'm not alone. There are others out there struggling with the same things. I hope it's helpful for you too.