I view blogs as a way to vent, let loose, express emotions, etc. I view them as a unique view into a person's innermost thoughts. So far I have shared some personal experiences of mine, but due to some serious things that are occuring in my life, I am going to get even more personal. Don't get me wrong--names will be protected, some details will not be shared, etc. After all, this is my family and I respect them enough not to go into details. But my general thoughts and feelings will be shared. And I hope that those of you who have gone through (or are currently going through) something similar will be able to identify with this blog. So here goes....
My parents have announced they are getting a divorce. It's shocking, even just writing it. So many emotions go along with this announcement. Anger, distrust, betrayal, sadness, despair, disappointment, etc. I'm 24 years old, which makes it even more difficult. For 24 years of my life, my family has been one way. And now I have to deal with the fact that things are going to be completely different for the rest of my life. It's a change I didn't ask for. It's very unfair.
I think when we reach a certain point in our lives, like high school or college, and our parents are still married, we feel invincible. If our parents stayed together this long, then doesn't it mean they'll be together for the rest of their lives? Sadly, this isn't always the case. Sometimes you realize your parents weren't happy for a long time. It makes you start questioning your childhood, certain events, basically everything you've known. You almost feel as if your life has been fake. Things were never really as happy as they seemed.
It's been a long journey to this point and it's just beginning in a way. I know I have a long road ahead, as do my siblings. And that frustrates me. When I thought about my future, this was never apart of it. Esp. in my newlywed stage of life. How discouraging it is to be a newlywed and watch your parents' 27-year marriage disintegrate.
I have many more thoughts to share with you all. I feel it's therapeutic for me to be sharing it. And I hope those of you that can relate to this will share your thoughts as well. It's my opinion that there are not enough resources out there for adult children of divorce. And even though it's a small step, I hope this blog will help change that. If you're reading this and know someone who is going through the same thing, I hope you'll share this entry with them. That's what this blog is for.
I only ask that we share our thoughts in consideration of others--I want this to be a comfortable, open, honest outlet for people to share what they're feeling and not be afraid of judgment.
Thank you for listening.