Well, I took an unplanned hiatus for about a month or so, but I'm back now! A lot has been going on, some good and some bad. I have found out that my parents' divorce will be finalized in about 90 days or so. Very sad, but good in some ways too. Why? It's the end to a long journey for all of us...a journey that has been extremely hellish and has wreaked havoc on everyone's emotional state. Frankly, I'm ready for this nightmare to be over. And finalizing the divorce represents that end.
But on the other hand, it also represents a new beginning. It's the beginning to a new life for me...a life I never imagined I'd have. I know I will be struggling with my parents' divorce for the rest of my life. It won't always devastate me the way it used to, but it does bring me sadness. And I don't think that sadness will ever go away. I'll have to deal with potentially new people coming into the picture and potentially uncomfortable situations between the family. When holidays, birthdays, graduations, etc. come around, there will always be a part of me that will long for the way things used to be. It will also be so difficult to see my parents together, but not together. I can't fathom what that will look like -- after all, I've seen them together for nearly 25 years.
So, with a deep breath, I start to move forward and piece back together my fragmented life. I have no idea what lies ahead, but you better believe I'll keep you all informed of this journey!
Can anyone else speak to what it was like after your parents' divorce was finalized? Were you happy, sad, relieved, all of the above? Did things get better or worse? Would love to hear from you all! Please leave a comment or email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. Could use all the encouragement I can get :)