A word I've grown quite familiar with lately. I'm not saying I was always Mary Sunshine, but lately I just feel angry all the time. I usually tell myself to stop being angry, but you know what? Sometimes anger is good. Healthy, even. Hey, if Oprah says so, then it must be true!
Most of my anger is related to my parents' divorce. But you know what I've realized? It's not specifically the divorce I'm angry about. It's that they got to this point to begin with. I feel like they've let this family down.
I've been finding that my anger over the divorce seeps into other areas of my life (which naturally my husband isn't so thrilled about). If one thing goes wrong, I get angry and feel like I've lost control. Has anyone else felt this way? I think it's normal. But it's going to be a struggle to deal with it.
In the meantime, I'm going to let myself feel anger. But I'm also going to let myself feel happy and excited. And sad. And frustrated. And every single other emotion that may come to mind. I've learned that in situations like this, it's nearly impossible to censor your emotions. You shouldn't even try. Because if I never feel anger, then I'll never appreciate the joy of feeling happy or content.